Bereavement/Letting Go Poetry

Michael
One sunny afternoon I noticed Bad
I was quite young and you were just a lad
From liking to obsession
You became a possession
Light in a long tunnel of gloom
Yearning for the afterlife too soon
Your musical voice spoke to me
I was so blind I could not see
Over years they tore to pieces
Were they lies or just press releases?
With slander they made you vanish
Gone so long like you were banish
All those years wishing to see
You performing, flying free
Your unique style and curly black hair
Such standards of fine exemplary flair
Hungering to hold close your hand
Spiritually on the sand
My lasting dream so abruptly gone
How can I possibly carry on?
A secret whispered in my grief
Perhaps offering me some relief
Your voice so sweet and transient clear
Makes me fall with a pitiful tear
Angry I am at those who feign
I know you would want all to gain
No sorrow is as great
I just wish not too late
Your smile, your dance, your angelic voice
How can I sit silent and rejoice?
Your essence rewoven into the universe
I can not stop imagining you in that hearse
You lay peacefully surrounded by concrete
Your family desired a place discrete
Unable to say a lasting goodbye
All I can do right now is sit and cry
In the afterlife if we could meet
My heart with joy I would take a seat
I’d tell you how you’d saved me so
When I was lost and full of woe
I’d look into your eyes, hold your hand
As soft as a cloud in Never land
And most likely joyful tears would fall
I’d tell you how I fulfilled my call
To make the world a better place
To love the smile upon your face

Letting Go
This last year sure did suck
There’s been such shit and muck
From losing Michael and a dream
And then a steady pouring stream
Of Grief and change
Me going derange
Friends once close now really not
Not accepting my new lot.
What had kept me going
Now had stopped me flowing
Saying goodbye to our cat
Unable to have a chat,
Then job gone and auntie too
Car scrapped was truly quite poo.
Hope arose in a new year
I tried not to have any fear
Then Nanna gone and forsaken brother
I needed to talk to my dear mother.
Through all that has gone by
Why me I don’t know why
Fresh lease of life come to me
Stronger than a long brewed tea
Old fears have been put to rest
I’d passed the unlucky test.
I shall let go and set you free
I say no more to misery
It is all now past history
Perhaps next year I will say
I am perfectly okay
I am having a good day

 
Loss

Kneel of desperation
Sensing your hand against mine
Futile words descend

Murmur in the wind
Whistling your quintessence
Time is meaningless

Shrouded in darkness
Your breath pausing in the breeze
Turning to see air

Tashie

On July Fourth you came
After that we never the same
So shy, small and cuddly
Teasing you with tuna carefully
A nervous passenger to say the least
Your life in London now ceased
Off to the country you went
Marking your territory with your scent
Your age was a timeless mystery
Were you two or did you have a longer history?
Your previous owners we weren’t aware
How many lives had you left spare?
Loving luxuries you liked your bed
Preferring to stay and sleep instead
Not a roamer who liked to hunt
Perhaps you were the litter runt
Cuddles and love you preferred much
Endless strokes to a hundred touch
A best friend, father, sister, brother
Sometimes falling out with dear mother
The years with us were just too quick
But if we had to choose and pick
We’re grateful you came into your lives
Even though your death is like stabbing knives
On August Twelfth, four years later
You left us to meet the maker
Nearly one year on and it hurts still
But as the time passes we hope our hearts fill
Joy without pain as we remember
The Christmases we shared in December
The way you licked our ears wet
Crawling upon our chests for a pet
And like a dog you roll
As we came in from a stroll
Lazing stretched out in the sun
Watching TV with you was fun
Having you was a wish come true
Even despite having to clean up poo
Feeling the loss of your presence
You leave behind your quintessence
Tashie you were so worthy
Our little princess baby
All the love you unconditionally gave
We’ll forever cherish in our hearts and save


A Cat's Epitaph

From humble beginnings I came

Reborn into royalty by name

Hugs and kisses were plentiful

But then I was very beautiful

For hours the sunshine and I beamed

I was living like I always dreamed

But a threefold feast everyday

Finally gave my heart away